My first professional dance job, I was hired to work with Cal State University of LA by Graduate Theatre Professor Seonagh Krummer. I learned choreography in 3 days before their show time because I was called to cover a dancer who couldn’t commit. I didn’t want to miss the opportunity. I dived in. I’m absolutely thankful it was in that space that my artistry evolved to new heights.
I had the most beautiful bruised knees from rehearsals. During that time I worked a part time job, I was enrolled in the honors program, enrolled in yoga school, and attending rehearsals. I thought to myself “when will I have this energy again, do it.all.” Car naps. People judge my narrative, however; I know i’m humbly accomplished given my personal and familial background.
It was around this season (2 consecutive years) that I worked dillegently in dance and academia for myself and others. I wouldn’t have received the professional opportunity if it weren’t for my PCC professors who branched me out and believed in my artistry. They were persistent in having me return to dance. I recall being shy in my PCC dance studio day 1, I was shook from nerves. Professor Shaw held my hand to go over counts because I no longer saw myself or acknowledged myself as a dancer. I was defeated. At one point in my life, I put my passion on the back burner. I didn’t even allow people or myself to refer to me as a dancer any longer.. because I believed the word was not apart of my identity. Professor Banks, constantly conditioned my mind with repetition that I am in fact a dancer, even when I sulked in her presence with denial.
The reason i’m excited to be a student choreographer for my CC is because… without them.. I would’ve remained on my hiatus from dance.
I’m living my 13 year old dream. When I was 12 I told my dance teachers I want to be a dance choreographer for productions. Our artistic director Carol Zee from my childhood dance program believed in my childhood dream, and she let me choreograph under her supervision my first dance piece. I had 4 dancers, Indian music I stole from my cousins bf, I designed our orange costumes, (but Jessica Garcia’s mom made my costume vision come to life, thank you so much) Then I got to talk about lighting design as a 13 year old. This piece i’m Choreographing is special, no matter how good or bad it may turn out.
I have learned Do what you love WHEREVER, just make sure you put your passion and heart in it. Thank you to the individuals who value and love the arts. Without art I wouldn’t be alive, truthfully. It has saved my life more than once. For this reason, I’m married to art.
I’ll never forget my attendance at The American Dance College Association 2 years ago. An adjudicator said “I have quit dance three times in my life, but it has never quit me.”
Here I am, dance.